You have been blessed by the Lord with something that you truly appreciate, but you come home one day and find it missing. Awful thought, but it happens. Sometimes it may be a blessing we cherish dearly, sometimes it may be a blessing we have been overlooking while focusing on something else. It’s a horrid feeling when you find someone has stolen what belongs to you, or you simply lost it yourself (not sure which is worst). Sometimes others may see what you have lost as trivial, but to you it’s valuable and you want it back.
But this is a people robbed and spoiled; they are all of them snared in holes, and they are hid in prison houses: they are for a prey, and none delivereth; for a spoil, and none saith, Restore. Isaiah 42:22
It is quite interesting reading this verse in other translations. Instead of the word ‘restore’ some has, ‘bring them back’, ‘send them back’,’bring that back’, ‘give them back’. However it’s translated, the verse always reminds me to go to the one who can truly restore and ask Him to get your stuff back for you. It is God who blesses and I believe that He does allow things to be removed from our lives at times and His will is perfect. Sometimes the removal is permanent, sometimes it’s not. I believe if we ask Him to restore, what is to be restored will be restored. However, today I’m not thinking about loses that are permanent, just ones that leave you feeling very miserable until they are restored.
So why is this on my mind? well, I took a break from blogging so I could spend extra time illustrating and publishing my first children’s book. Writing books for children has been a dream of mine for years now, as I hinted in another post Dormant Gifts and near the end of 2012 I got the courage to make this dream come through. I already had something written which needed illustration, so I set to work and finally I was able to publish my first book on Kindle on Thursday, February 22. I should have been celebrating. Unfortunately, the very next day I returned to my website to find it had been blacklisted by the giant Google. Had to pull an all nighter sorting that out. Turns out I was hacked by someone trying to gain links from my website. So because of their greed and covetousness, my hard work was brought to nothing. It was hard reading that my website is suspected of malicious activity and harder realizing I couldn’t even log in to it myself. In a moment, months of hard work was lost.
Going to bed at almost 5:00 a.m. in the morning after sorting this out was not pleasant, not in the least. However, I was blessed by the fact that after my initial panic, I prayed and asked God for help and by the time I got to bed, I went from totally clueless, to reading and changing codes that got rid of the malware, used to hack my website. God is awesome.
Now I should really be celebrating, right? Well by Sunday I was elated to see that KDP accepted and published my book. Then it disappeared off my KDP publisher’s bookshelf along with another book I had uploaded as a draft. I’ve been trying to get that resolved since then and up to this time of writing, it still isn’t. I’ve prayed, but I’m still waiting. I’m not sure if to laugh or cry at the irony. If I tell you the full story you’ll probably have the same reaction, but I will not. You see the customer service representatives have tried to help, it’s just that nothing has solved the problem as yet. Since I believe God could have had this fixed, just like my hacked website, I’m thinking He’s allowing this test for a reason. (I’m sure some one would say I need patience.)
If someone else was going through this I would have encouraged them that even though they are raw inside with frustration and feel like screaming, they should choose to be patient, do what they can do and let God work out the rest. Anger will not solve anything. I will take my own advise and do what it takes to keep calm, besides I know who the real thief is and whatever he may take away, it’s up to me to give up my peace. I choose to believe God is working this out for my good.
The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. John 10:10
I need to get back to my other projects. So until the next post remember God loves you and…
Heavenly Father, I pray for those who are right now struggling to regain something they have lost. Have mercy and send them the help they need. Direct their steps and keep them from losing their peace. Oh God I cry out “restore” for I know you are willing able to help your children. Thank You Father for hearing and answering and working things out for our good. In Jesus name. Amen.